The Bloody Valentine singer shares a glimpse of what his life is like behind the scenes in a new Hulu documentary that takes fans in the studio with him and on-tour. In addition to some personal interviews with his daughter, Casey, a huge part of the documentary focuses on MGK’s mental health, including one of the scariest moments of his life. He opens up about drug addiction, coping with his father’s death, and a suicide attempt while on the phone with his fiancée, Megan Fox. Back in July 2020, MGK was struggling to accept his father’s death — he passed away on July 5 — and recalls going to a dark place after speaking with one of his dad’s neighbors.“I flew to my dad’s apartment to clear all this stuff out. I had this really weird interaction with this neighbor who told me all these things I didn’t want to hear.” He continued: “That f—– me up even more because I couldn’t get closure on it. I wouldn’t leave my room and I started getting really, really, really dark.” The singer goes on to explain that he started getting paranoid. “Megan went to Bulgaria to shoot a movie and I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like I kept getting paranoid that someone was gonna come and kill me. I would always sleep with a shotgun next to my bed, and like, one of the days, I just f—— snapped.” “I called Megan, I was like, ‘You aren’t here for me,’” he added. “I’m in my room and I’m like freaking out on her and dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth and I’m yelling on the phone and like the barrel’s in my mouth. I go to cock the shotgun and the bullet as it comes back up, the shell just gets jammed. Megan’s like dead silent.“In the documentary, the musician pointed to his head, acknowledging that it was the moment he realized “something is not right.“He mentioned that both Fox and his daughter came to him separately to express their concerns. “They simultaneously came at me with this like, ‘I want to like, be able to see in your eyes. I don’t want to like be talking to you through a veil anymore. ‘I want to like see you as my father’ and ‘I want to see you as my husband to be’ and I was like, I need to kick the drugs for real this time,” he recalled. MGK concluded explaining that Fox is a huge part of his life, adding, “Megan became like the sun to me — like the one that I revolve around and gives me life and like helps me grow,” he said, adding, “It’s just like every fairytale that they never told you in school, that they never taught you. Like the passion between us is otherworldly. I know I’ve known her in so many other lifetimes.” MGK has opened up about his struggles in the past. In 2020 he spoke with Dave Franco for Interview Magazine where he addressed his drug problems and stated that he’s staying committed to the art. “Currently, my drug of choice is happiness and commitment to the art, rather than commitment to a vice that I believed made the art. I’m taking steps. I had my first therapy session last Thursday. That’s the first time I ever went, “Hey, I need to separate these two people,” which is Machine Gun Kelly and Colson Baker. The dichotomy is too intense for me.” If you or someone you know may be struggling with suicidal thoughts, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.Next, check out everything you need to know about Megan Fox and her three kids.
